Father n this girl

There were times to make a change...
just relax take it easy you're still young...
find a girl, settle down
if u want u'll be marry..
look at me i'm old but i'm happy...

yeahh....You're in heaven now Pa...
we miss you here..
i'm sorry that i can't read all these thing and suddenly thatt you're gone...
Heaven's call you.
Heaven must thing that i'm ready for all this.

you know that some girls letting me down...
and i know that u are hurting also..
including this last girl
last girl that maybe you didn't notice...
in so many things that i'm not obey to your command...
and you still love me...

in january that's the last time u ask me...who is my girl..
and i can't answer that...
becoz she hurt me also..
3 years is so big for me...
and she's letting me down...
maybe she didn't realize..
maybe her family didn't realize..

it always easy to say to someone...be patience, maybe this is the road...
but do they really know that in my case, thats mean mesh up....
my life was mesh up back than...
so silent...

i only could say...HOW COULD YOU DO THAT???
i only say to my God: This is it, God?
oughh...and so many people doesn't know about that...they keep pushing me a side..
they didn't know what really happen to me...

i'm in a deep shit.
i'm in trouble..
so i learn from it...
not giving up on this...
see...when u are hurt. just keep calm.

one month my father sick....wrong diagnose...
and i'm loosing him.
the best in me.
the best in my life...my father.

almost a month, now.
i'm not crying, becoz he doesn't want me crying.
i must be strong for this family.
his dedication so big for me.
he doing it all for me.
the first is always me..

he teach me that i must be 100 persen to the one that i adore.

now, i'll just have to keep on moving...either its you or anyone else that will be the one for me...
this note is i'm dedicating to the one that i love.
so that u know that i'm doing all my life for u.
so much sacrifice for u.
even now it become only memory for u.